Okay so recently, I got betrayed by someone I thought I knew too well. Pretty disgusting huh? But yeah it happens. The funniest part was I was not even sad or angry, it was like I had been expecting it all along. But anyways , it was an eye opener . I feel the best I have since I probably saw my first period LOL! Anyways...I just noticed that I say that a lot...But it looks like since I finally removed the last chain from this anchor, I grew...No not physically silliest. But in spirit and strength. Can you relate ? When are you going to cut off those that bring you down ?
We all need space. Just enough to let us grow, but not too much that you feel forgotten and left out. S easy to succumb to the charm. pain holds you back, and every night you're on your knees same prayer, "Make me bigger, my voice heard, a better day tomorrow". Tough night, tomorrow is the same, same fake smiles...but you're honestly trying but the scariest thing is remembering, fragments and pieces of a painful past you were too young to remember or know better. fuck this, another day ill deal with this shit, but when. All I have to make is a single phone call, get it off my chest, tell them that i remember now everything that they did, and you know better, but you're not doing it just for that. its because you need to grow . because maybe, just maybe the pain will stop and you can trust again, maybe even feel beautiful and carefree like you once did...damn! thats a long shot , but its worth trying right? but i never do, so every day i dont, a small piece of ...
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