2016, the To do list has started.

I am watching "Being Mary Jane". That's beside the point, how are you? Today what I want to get off my chest is the issue of pride. its ruining all the good memories waiting to be made. You're too big to admit the mistake you made, now you're lying in bed at 4am and your demons are eating you away because you didn't want to want to appear weak, anyway that aside.

I have fucked up a lot of my relationships because of one reason or the other, pride and the common enemy; jealousy. But one thing that remains a theme in most failed relationships is inconsistency, I think without a doubt most females are just looking for consistency, something they can rely on or a man they can depend on when it counts. I have had a couple of relationships behind me, and gradually you start to think then even believe that the problem is you when it's really neither of your faults.

I'll leave this here, unfinished because I do have coursework waiting on me. Hopefully, in the future I'll talk about my relationships one after the other trying to understand the problem for my next big relationship in 2016, because in as much as I don't want to be a pessimist I think the opportunities for 2015 have run out. See you later xx

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To my lover.

Photo by: Anjelicek on DeviantArt 2010 "Lovers by the river" You are the prayer that exceeded expectations. The reassurance that restores my life An unknown that became my guide Soul Tears that never came to pass You're misery that never actualised You are life, my life. To be by your side , life and death the same My beautiful hiba .

"Read All About It (Pt. III)"

"You've got the words to change a nation But you're biting your tongue You've spent a life time stuck in silence Afraid you'll say something wrong If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song? You've got a heart as loud as lions So why let your voice be tamed? Maybe we're a little different There's no need to be ashamed You've got the light to fight the shadows So stop hiding it away At night we're waking up the neighbours While we sing away the blues Making sure that we're remembered, yeah Cause we all matter too If the truth has been forbidden Then we're breaking all the rules Let's get the TV and the radio To play our tune again It's 'bout time we got some airplay of our version of events There's no need to be afraid I will sing with you my friend I wanna sing, I wanna shout I wanna scream 'til the words dry out So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid They can read all a...

Thousand Months.

Waiting for you to love me like I deserve it, even though most nights, I fall asleep knowing I never deserved you. Even for a minute I would give blood and sweat, for you to love me again, like you once did. Im hurting, but so are you. I wish I never wasted your love. But I'll wait a thousand months, for you to love me like you did, Love me once again like I deserve it.

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